Good bye my friend…

I just completed (what i think is) my last mission with Judy Alvarez.

this is my first run through of the game, and so far she has been my go to character. I would always try to please her, be on her side. each time i got a call/mission for her, i got so excited. me and her against NC. she felt like the only good person in night city, and definitely the most genuine person who is in the job line she has. so safe to say that saying goodbye to her was kinda painful for me.

and maybe i am overstating a little bit. there are others in this game that i think deserve total heaven, like jackie and his mom, or viktor the ripperdoc. but there are such few souls that are like judy's and she is the only one that gives me jobs so yeah.

but i genuinely felt sad when she said she was leaving, but also happy for her because i knew she would try to move on from her past and to a place with less pain. we just got back from the lake, which was filled with her childhood and the stories of her hometown. she was taking her time with her last goodbye, and learning that just made me feel so… something i cant even describe. i felt there.. i felt like i was her friend, and that we had done this together.

i think the strangest part though, is the point in my own life that i am experiencing this in. I graduated highschool recently, and so I had to say goodbye to plenty of chooms of my own. so this feeling is just a reoccurrence of the past several months.. and i don't know how to feel.

im kind of in a grievance period rn, and not sure how to process it all.. but i just hope that judy ends up okay wherever she goes.